today was so damn awesome that nobody smsed me. at all. {heart broken} really not a single person. let me check my phone. {takes my phone} only 5 messages from the night before. this is so damn sad. cannot sms indah her phone bill high and savannha, well, let just say that she doesn't like technology. and cheryl goh, nothing interesting to talk about. :( ying ci, practically DEAD. ._. syahindah binte suhaimi is the like the only person that i can talk about anything and everything with. she's like like like like my best friend or something. although i do not believe in "best friends" in secondary school but still nice to have one. (: my best bud ever. :D we have a boob collision just to prove how much we love each other :D and we kept hugging and encouraging each other before the run (: okay, omg now it sounds like we are lesbos or something. NOT TRUE. ._. i just LOVE her so much. that's all (: why nobody sms me???!! i feel so sad. ): i want to cry already!!! BOOHOO~ D': love drunk by boys like girls is nice :D haha and i tightened my bra just before i ran safety precaution. in case it suddenly decides to loosen itself and my boobs will be BOUNCING HAHAHAH :D okay this is just plain sick. whatevers. i just want to be drunk so that i won't feel any pain i don't want to feel anything anymore something is missing form my life. what is it? help me find it. please. whoever out there. help me find it GIMME BACK MY LOVE heh. it's gone. nobody to love except my friends (: those who cheered me on today and those who couldn't remember my name but also cheered me on(: such a joke. i'm totally invisible when i'm with indah and she's with her other friends. like they don't realise that i'm there. it's just so.. indescribable. just cos they don't know my name {yeah right} but i don't care about them. i don't even know them. all you need to know about me to know me is that one: i love ice cream two:i love my friends so much three:i might love you if i wanted yeah, it's just that simple. but things just get complicated by stupid idiotic reasons. it think i miss some one. but i don't know who. i think it's him. but i don't. CONFUSED. let me be emo for the rest of today and i'll just go and sleep. sleep cures everything. almost as miraculous as ice cream (:
you'll always be in my heart.
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